sooo Friday was fun. (:
My performance was okay...
I messed up a couple times and I think I was flat in a lot of parts...but besides that it was an alright performance I think. (:
Afterwards this one girl came up to me and she's like 'You rock.'
haha that made me smile. (:
And I spent most of the time having jam sessions with Cathleen, Christine Castillo, Catherine (all tenth graders) and Stephanie. ^-^
Cathleen and Christine did most of the playing and we sang along.
And everyone was all amazed at my guitar lighting up. XD
haha I luv my guitar. (:
I dunno about anyone else, but I enjoyed it a lot.
It was waaayy better than the last few years where I just sit in the mpr with everyone else listening to old people talk. X]
AND I DID TNIKLING (sp?)
IT'S SOOOOO FUN!!!
I WANNA DO IT FOR PCN SOMETIME WHEN I'M A SENIOR (or earlier ;]) !! =D
I was actually pretty good at it. ;]
Annddd at the end Catherine didn't have a ride home so we took her home and waited with her outside her house until her parents came.
I like Catherine. (: She's in my Japanes eclass too =D
hm...can't think of anything else...(I'm writing this like 5 days later actually. Sorry for not posting in a while. XP)

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I was being emo again this morning. -__-
But I got better around 5th period. (:
As hard as Bio H is, it's one of the classes I actually look forward to cuz it's really relaxed and it's just fun doing labs and what not. And I have an awesome partner ;]
I was still kinda meehhhh at lunch though...
But being in the media lab 7th per was just hilarious. Isabel and her...uh...Isabel-ness. X] PLUTES!!! XD

I'm gonna dedicate this post to Alyssa.

One of the new people I actually do like. She has a really pretty smile too. (:

I hope I can get closeto her this year.

I have 4 classes with her...that makes it a bit easier, even thought it is me. XD

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I can read Emily's blog again!
But there's no comment button. -.-
But I can read it again! (:

Labels: EmilyYang

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And your respect for me continues to dwindle...into negativity.

My sister hates my music.
Me- "Run baby, run; Don't ever look back..."
Maria- Run? Run where? See the lyrics keep telling to to run, but they never specify where. Etc...etc...
*sighhh*
But. What can I do?
We're complete opposties.
~ % Yin and Yang % ~
And that's what statistics show too. -.-
Does her disapporval make it hurt a bit everytime I start scram singing some of my favorite songs? Heck yeah. But am I gonna change? Heck no.

Sorry, but some things just can't change...

"They can change the locks don't let them change your mind."

♥♠♣♥♣♠♥

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Part of me wants to give up, but the other part won't let me.

It's like trying to drown myself but going back up and gasping for breath anyway. And that just adds to the pain.

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WARNING: in this post, I'm totally hating on the song 'You and M by Lifehouse so if you're just totally in love with the song, I don't suggest you read this. And don't get me wrong, I think it's a really good song. There's just some things I really dont like about it.
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Julian Yang (9/20/2008 4:15:12 PM): lifehouse?
michele bolanos (9/20/2008 4:15:35 PM): ._____. those songs make me feel kinda emo too.
michele bolanos (9/20/2008 4:15:41 PM): gosshh i'm hopeless.XD
Julian Yang (9/20/2008 4:16:23 PM): are you serious?
Julian Yang (9/20/2008 4:16:25 PM): lifehouse???
michele bolanos (9/20/2008 4:16:31 PM): ..yeah. T.T
Julian Yang (9/20/2008 4:16:35 PM): what theeee.
michele bolanos (9/20/2008 4:16:38 PM): I luv them though. ><


Well I have a love/hate thing for some songs.
Some songs like Blind really are sad to me
and some songs (*COUGH YOU AND ME COUGH*) I luv because they sound really nice but I hate cuz of the things they make me think about.
I mean, if you associated a song with a couple who you don't like as a couple, wouldn't you get sick of it too?
And if you saw that guy having PDAs and then you listen to the song and then you think of him PDAing and...well it'd just make you sick, right?
Or at least that's waht happens to me.
And now I seem like I'm just mindlessly hating...
But I've been thinking about this for a while now, and it happened to sorta come up so now I'm ranting about it. XD
And the way I think of things, one thing always leads to another...
And I think it's sooo ironic how the song goes 'It's you and me and all other people and I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you.'
And then you see that guy with like, a bajillion other girls. -___-
Annddd I'm not making any sense am I?
At least to you people reading this.
I bet you have noo idea what I'm talking about.
And I hope your not making any assumptions cuz this isn't about me at all.
I mean it is, what I'm thinking, but it's not really much about me directly...
Anndd I'm not making sense again...
And that's okay.
I just felt like getting that out.
But on that note, if a guy ever did serenade me or something, he better not use this song. XP
So yeeeaaah. Okay. This is pointless.
I hope no one bothered to read it. XP

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Now I'm in over my head, with something I said

Completely misread, I'm better off dead.

And now I can see, how fake you can be

This hypocracy's beginning to get to me.

--Over My Head- Sum 41

"Don't look at me like that. It's your fault for messing up."

That's right, it's my fault.

There's no more room for mistakes.

No more room for failure.

No more room for me.

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I want the sunlight to stream into my room the way it does in yours.

I want to wake up to the bright sunlight of day.

But my room is forever bathed in the hues of gray and blue.

I wanna see the sun.

It's weird how sometimes you feel like you need to be alone to not feel so lonely.

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OH YEAH BTW,
I CAN'T GO TO THE LIGHT THE NIGHT WALK. D:

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MY TEAM GOT OUR FIRST REAL WIN IN VOLLEYBALL TODAY!!
AND I MADE 5 SERVES IN A ROW TO GET 15 POINTS AND WE WOOONNN!!! YAAAYYYY!! =D
And I gotta thank JuJu for that. Cuz he taught me how to serve. XD ^-^

Uh...what else was important about my day?
...I forget. =P

Uhm.
Oh yeah.
One thing I should've mention a looonngg time ago is that...
I'm done with 'hating on' DanielHo.
*gasp* Really?!O.o
Yes. Really.
And why...I won't tell you.
And I won't tell you why I won't tell you why either. XP
But. yeah. So. That's it.
(:

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♥♥♥HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA LIU!!!! ♥♥♥

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"Guardian Angel"?

"Sent by God"?

hahaha probably not.

....

But in a way, maybe to me.

'People can't just sit around expecting to be saved...'

and yet you're always there 'saving' me.

An angel without wings.

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So if you wanna burn yourself remember that I love you.

If you wanna cut yourself remember that I love you.

If you wanna kill yourself remember that I love you.

Call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead.

--Kimya Dawson- Loose Lips

Do you love me?

Make some plans with me? (:

Labels: lyrics

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Instead of wishing for you to notice me, I'm gonna focus on the people who already have.

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9/11
-Moment of silence-

[**********]oooooooooooooooooo
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♥♥♥HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREW!!!!! =D ♥♥♥

And yes, I really am typing this at 12 in the morning.
I'm not done with homwork is why...but I took time off just to post this. Feel special. ;P

Labels: Andrew, Happy Birthday

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I can barely look at you anymore.

Do you notice?

Would you even care if you noticed?

I don't think so.

Trying to do my homework, but can't focus.

I've just got way too much on my mind.

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If you happened to be on my blog at the split second I accidentally posted this post, please forget whatever you read, because I don't even know what I'm saying anymore.

And Alice Zuo, thanks for letting me know I can always talk to you. <3

But don't feel bad if I ever feel like I can't.

And that applies to anyone else too.

I just don't know what to say anymore so I think it's better not to talk for a while.

I just hope I won't hold it in too long and explode.

And jsut so you all know, I check everyone's blog all the time.

And I always read through even the longest ranting posts.

But I just wanna let you guys know I might not comment as much on those things anymore.

It's not that I don't care, I just don't think I can say anything all the helpful anymore.

Love you guys, hope this post didn't make you worry or 'think too much.'

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I feel like I'm becoming somewhat more of a loner...

"Sitting by yourself, picking your wrists- I'm starting to worry."
"Hi. Are you new here?" "No." "Oh. What grade are you in?" "9th." "How come you're not talking to anyone?"

Ahh what's wrong with me?
This isn't how I wanted to start my freshman year. T-T

Also, I've been kinda sick lately which just adds to my quietness cuz it's hard to talk. D:
And today I went to the wrong class for 4th per and I rushed to my locker, to Perry's room then, realizing I was in the wrong class, to Breusch's room. Where I found Joyce took my seat. >O
But it's okay. I sit by Ralph and Chardu now. (:
But then the running totally killed me so I was breathing hard and feeling really crappy.
I better get better before the mile on Monday. T-T

Well besides that, I'm happy cuz I'm in couple dance for lipsynchs and Ralph said he was okay with being my partner. (:


All in all guys...
I hope you can put up with my social awkwardness.
There's always gotta be a 'loner' in a 'group' right? XP

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You're like the needle and thread I used to mend my "broken heart."
Always going in and out, in and out;
and it still hurts just as much every time the needle pierces through.

I tear my heart open,

I sew myself shut.

And my weakness is

that i care too much...

--Papa Roach- Scars

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So much to write, so little time. D:
I problly won't be blogging much as school work gets worse and worse....
I bet everyones blog is gonna be dead. =[
But I'll try my best to post on weekends and such...
See you guys at school! ^-^
<3

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Let's break this mold, can't let this hold us, let's be soldiers, no longer let them control us.

Bounce- Thousand Foot Crutch

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I just finished reading Alice's blog...and it was related to what I was just about to post about...O.o
...so now I've decided not post about it. XD
Instead I will...I dunno...ramble on about anything that comes into my mind.
ahahaha this should be interesting. X]

So. I've been sick. And haven't felt like going on the computer cuz I was just bleehh.

This summer was pretty disappointing...
Didn't see a lot of people...
And ended up not having a sleep over.
Meaning I've still never been to one. Which is pretty saddening. ):
Never reached any of my 'goals for the summer'
Barely ever practiced guitar...I think I've kinda given up on it.
Found out we still have more construction to do.
And was caged up at home most of the time.
Wonderful. -_____-


That aside...
I watched Chris Brown on Sesame Street this morning. O.o XD
It was kinda cute...singing and dancing with Elmo. About signs XD

Shivvy and I are having a very weird convo right now...from the usual, school, guys, formal...to...uhh....things. That I'd rather not show you. For two reasons. XP

Ahh i just ate a cookie. With trans fat.
sigghh just another one to add to my fat out-of-shape-ness. T-T
With that said, I can't wait for PE.
I'm gonna die, yes.
Buuuutttt I missed being outside playing sports.
Flag football, here I come. =D
After testing though.
Bleh. I hate testing. T-T

I've still got school shopping to do... .___.

Once upon a time, I was falling in love; now I'm only falling apart.

I finally see it.

... figured that the only reason I started liking ____ was cuz I had to get over _____....

I'm glad I finally see it.

But now I've got a clear mind and a guilty conscience.

I'm sorry, I ended up lying; mostly to myself but consequently to you too. ...Does it count as lying if it's what you made yourself believe as the truth?

Well, it's a new year, so let's all move on, shall we?

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