Ahhh
I am sick. T-T
My throat hurts D:
And my head hurts.
And ahhh I feel crappy...
I hope I get better by the time school starts. ><

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I plsyed DDR with my brother today...but we still couldn't find the mat so we both had to use the controllers...now my thumbs are like, dead. x__x

My last day of tennis lessons was today too.
I got the trophy. O.o
It was kinda sad cuz my brother wanted to get the trophy in his class (we're in different classes) but he didn't get it and then I got it but didn't really care about it. -___-

Ahhh
I think I'm getting sick. *__*

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NOOO I'M FALLING BEHIND ON POSTING! D:
Blame my sister. she's a computer hog. T-T
Aaannyywayy...Wednesday was fun!
Spur of the moment plans are fun. ^-^
Izzy and I came at the same time again! O.o
And tehn her dad invited me to go eat with them and we ate at Home Town Buffet. And then we went to Izzys house and drew in each other's planners (I'm sorry Izzy...I totally killed your planner...pens and markers DO NOT mix well like that...I'll draw in your planner again when my artisticness comes back. =P) and watched Japanese drama!! XD
Omggoosshh it's sooo adicting! I didn't even get to finish the whole show even though I left at about 10:00. XP

haha (:
Anyway, here's my schedule-

per 2- Ednoff
per 3- Park
per 4- Bruesch
per 5- Perry, Aileen
per 6- Oyama
per 7- Collins

Comment me to tell me if we have any classes together! (:

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Like my new layout?

Yeah, I'm back to black...ahh well...

Still, I think it's pretty. ^-^

I spent the least amount of time making this one, but it took me the longest time to find the pic. -___-

Pickup day tomorrow! =O
Ahhh I'm in denial...but sorta excited at the same time. XP
Come early! I'm gonna try to be there by 8.^-^
Ahh i should go fill out my forms too...
Bye for now. (:

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GAAHH I haven't been on the computer in a while cuz I was at Universal Studios on Saturday (unexpectedly o.o) and my sister's been using the computer to upload her Europe pics to Facebook. -___-
I had a post on Friday...but it disappeared. O.o
Aannyywayy...
I changed my song. (:
And now I need to change my layout...cuz this layout doesn't go with this song. -___-

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I'm getting too lazy to post a lot.
Have you noticed? XP
too busy watching Shugo Chara too! XD
IIKUUTTOOO <3

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Maria's back! ^-^
Still has jet lag though. =/
And she went right to working on more debut stuff. -____-
But she's back. Yay. (:

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I had a weird dream last night.
Sort of...a nightmare I guess.

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Nvm, guess I don't really feel like telling about it. :P
But it was particularly weird. O.o

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Nothing interesting today.

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Went to the mall with Izzy and Jenny today! =D
It was their first time eating at Yogurtland! =O
Jenny was the only one who bought anything...and she owes me $5. =P

We forgot the mall closes early on Sunday. -___-
Lotsa pics of Izzy in the empty mall. O.o *upload to photobucket later*

And then we had to go to Home Depot. And Izzy and my mom shared love stories about her dad and my dad. XD

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So I'm writing this on Sunday.
I just don't wanna skip a date. XP

soooo....

Today was okay...I was at my Aunt's house all day.
I went to the airport too to drop off my grandparents.
And then on the way home we started 'rocking out' to this song- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Or2riVgRRJQ"

dhahaha reeaally long song with a reeaallly long intro. (1 min 50 sec O.o)

Izzy called me a lot yesterday cuz she was dying over at her aunt's house. Aww poor Izzy. Sorry I couldn't come. =/

....HOW DO YOU TALK TO AN 18 YEAR OLD GUY YOU KNOW BARELY ANYTHING ABOUT??? >_____________<

Weellll....this post was all over the place...ahh well...you will never understand how I think~~~ mwahahahaa ;]

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I was supposed to go out to eat with Izzy today but not anymore. *sobs* T-T
And with only about 2 1/2 more hours to go. RAWRR
My dad could've at least told me sooner instead of cancelling last minute. DX~
Now I have to wait til next NEXT week. D:
Gahhh now what'll I do with my Friday?? T________T

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Jenny got me into watching it. XP

Jenny (8/14/2008 8:26:24 PM): so ikuto is your new anime crush?
Jenny (8/14/2008 8:26:27 PM): sarah has those
xjapayuki_girlx (8/14/2008 8:26:39 PM): MMHMMS ^-^
Jenny (8/14/2008 8:26:40 PM): and im like GET THAT DRAWING OFF OF YOUR PHONE WALLPAPER
xjapayuki_girlx (8/14/2008 8:26:45 PM): HAHAHAHAHHAHAAAA
xjapayuki_girlx (8/14/2008 8:26:51 PM): She seems cool. (:


IKUUUUTTOOO KUUUUNN!!
heehee he's so cute. ^-^ He has a cat chara!! So he has cat ears!! =O
hahaha and Amu thinks he's a pervert. X]
I think that's insanely cute though. :P

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There's about 3 weeks left of summer vacation.
And the only person I've hung out with is Izzy. Once. (Oh and squirrel...doesn't really count...)
So much for all the people saying we should go do something together.
A lot of the time it seems like I'm the only one making an effort.
I won't say anything specifically on here...just that there's a lot of people I wanna hang out with...but I'm not gonna keep trying anymore. It's too tiring to keep on trying to plan something...and I haven't been invited anywhere much...
1 from Pauline...couldn't go. Another from Jill...couldn't go. And then there were all of the failed plans with Andrew and Shivvy and Michy...(though I haven't given up on you guys yet, so don't think this is directed to you. ;])
I heard a lot of:
"Yeah, let's go somewhere." "We have to hang out over the summer"

and especially "...when Isabel comes back..." Well,...she's back. And it's okay, I already know it..so I won't say anything more on that.

And no, I'm not going all emo depresssed over this. I just thought I'd let you guys know. So you problly won't see me much (if at all) this summer...but that's okay, cuz I don't think you mind, do you? Cuz if you do, you sure don't show it. (Once again, there's no emoness, malice, bitterness, resentment, or depression there. (: )

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Yesterday was fun, today was boring...
that's why the post I made today is dated for yesterday. X]
Sooo yeah.
Boring boring boring. D:
I didn't feel like doing aaannnyyttthiinnggg today.
not even chatting.

Isabel is my inspiration...after she left yesterday I suddenly felt like drawing. I was up drawing til 1 AM and then my parents finally made me go to sleep.
But today I don't feel like drawing anymore...but I have to finish it. >O
Sooo I think I'll godo that now.
Goodbye. (:

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Isabel came over! =D



We were just being random taking pictures and videos...


gettinghighoffSunnyD/ backwardsalphabet/ scandalousposes/ treehugging/ onmybed;]/ hide-and-seek-peek-abooo.o/ backgroundmusic/ randomsinging/ camerahogs/ awkwardpicturetakers/ airis$0.75/ crappyinterviews/ kevjumba/ suckyvideogaming(:

Labels: Izzy, pic

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY CATHERINE!!!!

My lucky golden necklace...always close to the heart, even when you're all the way in China~


♥♥♥♥♥♥

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It was a beautiful letdown
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone
Unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful letdown
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do

In a world full of bitter pain
And bitter doubts
I was trying so hard to fit in
Fit in, until I found out

I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I will carry a cross and a song
Where I don't belong
I don't belong

It was a beautiful letdown
When You found me here
Yeah, for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful letdown
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free

We're still chasing our tails
In the rising sun
In our dark water planet still spinning
In a direction no one wins
No one's won.

See, I don't belong here (I don't belong)
Well, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I will carry a cross
With a song where I don't belong
I don't belong
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
No, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I'm gonna set side
And set sail
For the kingdom come, kingdom come
Your kingdom come
Won't you let me down, yeah
Let my foolish pride forever let me down

Ah, Easy living, you're not much like the name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Would you please take me off your list
Easy living please c'mon and let me down

We are a beautiful letdown
Painfully uncool
The church of the dropouts
The losers, the sinners, the failures, and the fools
What a beautiful letdown
Are we salt in the wound
Hey, let us sing one true tune

I don't belong here (I don't belong)
It feels like I don't belong here, yeah
It goes like I don't belong here
I don't belong (I don't belong)
Won't you let me down (I don't belong)
C'mon and let me down (I don't belong)
You always let me down (I don't belong)
So glad that I'm let down (I don't belong)
C'mon and let me down (I don't belong)
'Cause I don't belong here
Won't you let me down!

Labels: lyrics

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These pics are really pretty.
the sunken Garden makes me think of Eden. =o

http://www.pixcetera.com/pixcetera/natures-best-backyards/27885?icid=100214839x1207049886x1200386954

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Soo....if you you haven't already seen it...
Izzy posted a pic of me and her at my house yesterday...
I don't like that picture. Cuz as I said I'm in my pjs and my hair looks horrible.
But that's the last picture of my hair.
And Izzy was the last one to see it.
I got it cut yesterday.
The lady cutting my hair made me look KOREAN. O__o
Josh's nightmare is realized- Kilipino child. XD
(Well at least I didn't thave one XP)
hahahaha anyway...it was really funny...I couldn't stop laughing after I got it cut...
(It doesn't look so bad in the pictures though...so I dunno if you'll be able to see the 'Korean-ness' :P)
but the the haircutter lady totally POOFED up my hair...I look like I belong in Hairspray.
She blowdried it and used the round brush to make it poofy and then put hairspray all over it. O.o
It was fun to put my hand on my hair and just bounce on it. X]
It doesn't look so bad flat though...but it was pretty bad when I woke up in the morning.
But a bit of hairgel should fix it. Time to experiment. ;]
Pics laterrr~. My mom told me I had to go and take a whoolee bunch of pictures at different angel and expressions..so I did.
Now I have like 50 pics of myself and my Korean hair. X]
Stay tuned! ;]

Labels: haircut, Izzy, Korean

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Izzy came to my house. =D
I'm the first one to see her~~ YAAYY~~~ ^-^
And we took pictures...(though I'm in y PJs and haven't combed my hair properly. -.-'') and OMGOSSHH SHE GOT EVEN CUTER. ;]]
And here I didn't think that was possible. XP
♥

Labels: Izzy

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DISCLAIMER: The following post...is just a story about my day yesterday and is only relevant to Isabel and Isaac. It's filled with stuff about my angsty emoness and is probably just a waste of your time. I was pretty hysterical, but I wanted to get this all out. If you read it, I'll probablly just come off as dramatic and emo and immature. But if you're that bored and need something to read, then go ahead, but don't say I didn't warn you. Also, if you're going to read it, read it all the way through. Don't skim or just skip ahead to the last paragraph. See me how you want, I've been through enough hell to take it. But at least get the whole picture I'm able to give.
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Are you okay?, What did you do today?, What are you doing tomorrow?, Is your face okay now?....
The beach, Borders, cousins, ways to suicide, forgetfulness, Korean pop songs, writing, running away, Cheerios and Lucky Charms, Uno, earthquakes, sleeping, secrets, 'What would you do if...?', posters, shallow, immature, raging hormones, 'Why...?', dying, disturbing images, and near-death experiences.
Isaac and I talked about A LOT last night. O.o

I guess I should start at the beginning though...

Sometime yesterday, in the early afternoon, I called Isabel's house and talked to her dad. I asked what time she was coming home, and he asked me if I wanted to come to the airport with him to pick her up. Of course I wanted to. I wanted to be the first one to see her once she got back. (Heh. Guess I'm a bit selfish that way.) So I told him I'd ask my parents and then call back.
But when I asked my parents...of course at first they said no.
It wasn't until around 5:30 when we were by Izzy's house on the way somewhere. So they decided to stop by.
But, just my luck, her dad wasn't home.
My mom said he probably went somewhere and was just going to go straight to the airport without coming back home.
I didn't give in though. I kept callig her house over and over. (I only left a message once though.) Still, no answer.
As you can guess, I was pretty bummed out.
My brother started annoying me too.
Then my parents asked where we wanted to eat. They gave us 2 choices, and my brother said whichever one was fine. So I just picked one. So we decided to go eat there.
But when we got there, my brother started complaining. "This place? I didn't know you meant this place! I don't wanna eat here!"
So we went to eat at the other place. Which pissed me off.
Because whenever I complain about where we eat, my parents scold me and say that I complain too much. But of course, my brother is a different story. Tch. But I didn't complain because I wanted to avoid fighting again.
We were sitting there waiting for out food to come when my brother took his fork and knife and started wiping them with his napkin...
But he knows I hate that sound ( metal against metal) cuz it really irritates my ears for some reason and so I just said "Stop it." and then my parents started yelling at me telling me to stop picking on my brother just becuase I didn't get to pick up Isabel from the airport.
I started crying in the restaurant.
To make things worse, my brother made my MP3 player freeze earlier that day so I couldn't listen to my music. And, if you don;t already know, I'm lost without my music. I wasn't gonna go all angst yemo on them, but I was dying to listen to some Fall Out Boy. So that just made me look even more sulky. Great.
After dinner we had to go to Long Beach. On the way there my brother suddenly says "So we're going swimming on Saturday?" and then I said "What? Why? Don't, I can't." I really like swimming. I asked to go swimming at a lot of different time this summer, but we've only gone once, in Vegas. My dad asked why I can't and I just said "Because I can't." He got it though.
And he just said "Then don't swim. We'll just go swimming."
And that just pissed me off more.
I couldn't go swimming because I had just started my period that day.
(and so on top of everything else, I was already like, PMSing. -__-)

And then my parents yelled at me some more when we got home.
And I cried some more.
And cried, and cried.
I couldn't stop it now. I think I was a bit hysterical.
I don't know what was wrong with me.
I'm never this dramatic...I think there's a few things that helped make me totally break like that. But I won't say. I just don't want you guys thinking I'm always this hyterical when I cry.
So I just lay in my bed, hugging my pillow and crying while still trying to call Isabel on my cell phone.
Once though, I was trying to call her and ended up calling Isaac instead by accident. I hung up right away, but he still got the call and called my right back. So I told him that I was trying to call Isabel and I called him by accident. He could obviously tell something was wrong though. I couldn't steady my voice and my nose was all blocked up. Anyone with ears could tell I was crying. So he asked me if I was okay but I told him not to worry about it. And then he told me that Isabel was back. And I asked him how he knew and he said because Isabel called him at around 8:45 when she got back. And then he said that she said she was going to call everyone else to.
Which depressed me even more becuase she hadn't called me.
I hung up on Isaac (who had no idea what to do cuz I wasn't even talking anymore, just crying) and he went to take a shower.
So I was crying for a while and my dad started yelling at me some more for crying so much. But I really couldn't stop. It was so bad I threw up everything I ate for dinner into the sink. Adn then my dad got mad at me for throwing up in the sink.
My head was pounding...it hurt so freakin much I sorta fainted... Like I was concious but I fell backwards onto the bathroom floor. I didn't hit it too hard though cuz I caught myself last minute by grabbing onto the sink.
Then I went back to my bed, but I couldn't get to sleep.
So I sat on the floor and softly played some music. I just put 'It Ends Tonight' on repeat. And that's when Isaac called me and we started talking about all that stuff up there^. When I was finally able to hang up at about 1:11 in the morning, I checked my phone and it said we talked for 1:48:42. But Actually it was even longer than that because at on point when we were takling the connection broke and I had to call him again.
He was afraid I was gonna suicide (but he ended up actually accidentally giving me ideas on ways to suicide. xP) but he really shouldn't have.
As I had just posted, that day, life's too precious to waste.
And anyway, I definitely couldn't suicide the day my wife finally came back. ;]
I'm really glad I talked to him though. I didn;t tell him about any of this stuff. We just talked about all those random things...but it was nice. I was able to smile before I went to sleep instead of crying myself to sleep. I wouldn't have hung up either if I wasn't afraid of wasting my minutes and if I didn't have to wake up early today. He really wouldn't let me hang up...he threatened to cal lmy home phone if I did. But finally it was past 1 and I decided I really should get off the phone so we said bye and goodnight and I tried to get to sleep. My eyes were heavy, but I couldn't tell if that was because they were puffy from crying or becasue I was sleepy. I'm pretty sure it was the first one though cuz I didn't get to sleep til past 3.
I don't know if you'll read this but
Thank you IsaacChae. :] ♥

So this morning, as I was typing this up, Isabel called me.

And she told me that she got too lazy to call people but she had promise to call Isaac.

And then we just talked about dresses and other stuff. xP

It was so nice to hear my wife's voice again. ^-^

Welcome back. ♥

Labels: crying, death, Isaac, Izzy, late night - early morning, phone calls, rant

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It's funny how many times we can realize something, forget about it, and then realize it again.

Like, life. How important it is to 'live every day to the fullest.'
Has anyone else noticed how many different times we say that?
And then...we just forget about it for a while and live in mundanity and hesitation.
And then, you remember it again.
But our constant reminders are....someone dying.
It's amazing, isn't it?
How someone's death can have 'such a big impact' and brings out this big realization of how precious your life is. How we can die at any moment.
How anyone important to us can die at any moment.
You think something like that would be etched into our brains forever.
But sadly, no.
We need constant reminders, we're constantly forgetting.
What will it take to makeyou remember permanently?
1,000 deaths? 10,000?
No, now those are just statistics to you.
Well, I'm not waiting for some horrible massacre to realize this.
I'm realizeing it now, and for the last time;
Because I'm not forgetting it anymore.

Labels: death, forget, random, rant, realize

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When you really love someone, you love them for them, right?
You love their personality, and you love that certain person for certain things that sets them apart from everyone else.
So...
What if we all...
...switched souls?
What if...
the soul of the person you loved..ended up in the body of another.
And the body of the person you love has a different soul inside.
Can you still say you love that person?
With a different personality, but with that same familiar face you know and love.
And what of your loved one's new body?
Would you still love them?
Same personality, but completely different face and body.
Even if you did get used to it, wouldn't you still always feel some sort of attatchment to that other person who took your love's body, whoever they are?

*This thought was completely random and in no way related to anyhting that's going on in my life right now. :P

Labels: random, What if...?

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I forgot to mention...Maria left for Europe on the 31. =P
She hasn't called a while...problly can't find a phone in France.
Anyway, this comic reminds me of her.
(she's the one in the green =P)

Labels: comic, Europe, Maria, random

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I went to TC today.
I saw Raymond there. O.o (Michy's brother)
We sat right by each other eating lunch.
I saw Veronica and Andrew Park too...
and there was someone else...but I don't remember who it was. =P
Anyway beisdes that...i bought manga. =D
I got Ouran 1 and Ranma 14...but Im gonna return Ranma cuz the friggin sticker thing inside the book won't come off. D<

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENZ!!! =D

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I spent a lot of my time today talking to Isaac and Alice.
Yay Alice =)
And did I ever mention how much I like this pic? ^_^

Labels: Alice Zuo, Isaac, Izzy, pic

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It started out as a feeling

Which then grew into a hope

Which then turned into a quiet thought

Which then turned into a quiet word

--Regina Spektor

-The Call

Labels: lyrics

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I'm not one of the first people you think of when you wanna hang out,

I'm not the person you go to when you have a secret to share,

I'm not the person you look for to talk to...

But I am the person standing by you,

right behind you to catch you if you fall.

If only you'd turn around and notice me.

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~clicky

I find this game funny. (in my cynical sorta way ;])Can you see why?

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Shivvy left for Yellowstone this morning.
I called her at 8:02 to say bye and we talked for about 8 and 1/2 minutes. =P

Well, just felt like letting you guys know.
And she'll be back on the tenth. =]

Labels: Shivvy

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I just realized...I haven't been making any 'deep' or 'emo' posts lately. Not even in my drafts.
Which is werid for me.
It's not like my life has suddenlt gotten better or anything...
I guess I'm just...tired.
I think I'm closing up again.
And I don't think that's a good thing.

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